For the past year, I haven't felt like I was 24 years old. I felt my joints swelling all the time, then I developed chronic costochondritis (the inflammation of cartilage between the ribs and the breastbone), and then abdominal and lower back pain that the doctors were unsure of what it was and what was causing it, but gave me meds for it anyway that helped slightly.
Feeling like I'd have all this pain forever, holding me back from things I used to enjoy without having to sit down to rest after 20 minutes or even just making me feel miserable almost everyday--the pain suddenly went away.
Yup, it was those stupid wisdom teeth the whole time. I kid you not! As soon as they were extracted from my mouth, the pain I had been experiencing since last April was gone. They must had been striking a nerve that was causing my body to react the way it's been.
It's amazing the weird things the body does and just how small of an object can cause such huge pain and problems. Not to mention they were causing me to have migraines every day for several months on top of all that. So if I ever seemed grumpy to you for the past year--you now know why.
Needless to say, despite the fact that I developed a slight case of dry socket which really sucks and hurts like hell (not to mention the medicine my periodontist gave me tastes god-awful), I am so thankful I got those teeth out.
So, I had my surgery and it wasn't that bad. The anesthesia knocked me out within a minute and when I woke up, it was as if I was asleep for only a second. I think I did wake up for a split second while they were working on my teeth 'cause I remember hearing drilling and bones cracking. But it was one of the best naps of my life. :)
I'm still numb from the anesthesia and my surgery was about 6 hours ago. Needless to say, drinking has been an adventure, as some of whatever I've drank has dribbled down my chin without me knowing, lol.
The doc put a stronger dosage of Tylenol in my IV while I was under, so the pain's not supposed to wear off until about 9:30. I feel it on my right side right now, but I have a high threshold for pain. I have vicodin and also an antibiotic I have to take to prevent a risk of infection.
The pharmacy was a pain in the ass. Since I can't talk due to gauze and risk of ripping my stitches, Kyle had to speak for me. The guy who took the drop offs was very helpful and understanding. He told us to come back at 6 to pick up the script. Well, the woman at the pick up counter was a huuuuuge bitch. Kyle told her I couldn't talk 'cause I just had teeth surgery. She then proceeds to ask questions, like, "What's your date of birth?" expecting me to answer. So, Kyle answers for me and she suspiciously says, "She doesn't know her own birthday?" And Kyle, annoyed, repeats, "I just told you she had tooth surgery. She can't talk." And the woman goes, "Oh, I didn' t hear you." She was so rude and just ignorant.
I treated myself "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" to help me feel better 'cause that movie is hilarious and I've been wanting to get it for awhile. I rarely ever buy anything for myself other than food and anything we need for the apartment. I'm happy.
And I have Kyle here. Since I can't talk, we've reverted back to the old days of using AIM to communicate, lol. I love him.
Gonna go make a smoothie in a bit before I change my gauze. I'm sooooooooooooo hungry!!!!! On the bright side, I'll probably lose a lot of weight during my soft food/liquid diet. Not to mention NO MORE MIGRAINES AND INFECTIONS!
I'm ecstatic. Hopefully the healing process is smooth sailing. :)
It's amazing how many problems pain from just your teeth can cause you. Between migraines, infections, swollen jaw--you name it--I cannot wait to get these stupid wisdom teeth out of my head today. However, I'm getting pretty anxious about it, as I've never had surgery of any kind before and am nervous about how I will react to the anesthesia.
My appointment isn't until 2:20 today, but I took the entire day off of work to get some cleaning done around the apartment, as I will most likely be too incapacitated to do any work or want to do any work, and to allow myself to calm down before going to my appointment. I feel all jittery and probably will until I am put under.
Kyle's staying by my side the entire weekend, and I love him so much. Hopefully I won't be too much of a pain in the ass this weekend; I hate being needy.
Anyway, wish me luck. Hopefully the healing process will be really quick and I'll be functioning well enough to feel all right at work on Monday.
Forgive: 1. to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.); absolve. 2. to give up all claim on account of; remit (a debt, obligation, etc.). 3. to grant pardon to (a person). 4. to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one's enemies.
Many people in life never learn how to perform this action. And it's a sad thing when forgiveness is a forgotten trait, especially among friendships. Over the years, I've endeavored many hurtful scenarios ranging anywhere from family to friends to coworkers. However, all of these moments I have forgiven, as we all make mistakes and no one is perfect. We are human.
Certain individuals remain out of my life despite my forgiveness toward their previous actions, only because they continue to adhere to those actions. Unfortunately, some people never change and it's difficult to maintain a friendship when heads are going to be butted constantly.
Others have slowly drifted from my life, as interests have differed and the real world has swept us into its relentless routine that allows very little time to even breathe. Many of them I miss, and many of them I wonder if they are holding a grudge against me and refuse to forgive me for whatever I may have done. I may never know, but I know not to let the thought rule my life.
Needless to say, I don't believe in holding grudges, no matter the circumstances (unless of course it involves absolutely life-changing devastation, such as murder or identity theft, or even any kind of theft). Sure, it's okay upset and mad for a small period of time, it's only natural, but burning your bridges is only going to bite you in the ass later in life, especially when you least expect it. Forgive. Accept your friends, your family members, and other folks you encounter in your daily life for who they are, including their flaws. All of my family, friends (and myself) and other individuals whom I encounter often have their flaws as we are not perfect, but I love them for them, which includes flaws, because I would not have them any other way.
One of my favorite quotes comes from "My Big Fat Greek Wedding," and it speaks so many truths:
"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be a part of who you will be."
Things happen, things change, and mostly for the better. So forgive the past, let be a part of who you are today (as I'm sure it has strengthened you in many ways), but don't let it rule your life.
Everyone lives only once, so don't dwell on the past, don't submerge yourself in regret, but most of all don't live in anger and hatred.
This morning, Google was having some issues where every site listing on a search would have this link listed underneath it: "This site may be harmful to your computer." It did this on every search I did. To make sure this wasn't a fluke or a possible hack, I decided to search my name to see what happened.
Of course the same thing happened, but I discovered something very cool during this little Google adventure. Back when I interned for Where Magazine, I had the opportunity to interview and write an article on an up-and-coming jewelry artist--Abigail Seligsohn. I was very nervous about interviewing her, as it was my first official phone interview as a writer. I remember she was very sweet and very passionate about her entrance in the jewelry world. Not to mention her jewelry line is very original, very edgy, and very awesome. Anyway, I found on my Google experimental search that she put the article I wrote on her and her jewelry (short as it was [I was limited to 50 word, if I remember correctly]) on the press page of her website, and I feel very honored. :)
To see the article, visit her press page: Abigail Seligsohn. Be sure to check out her jewelry, too!
I've never had a song dedicated to me on the radio, ever. Today, Kyle told me to turn on 93.3 WMMR on my way to meeting my friend Cathy for lunch. Over the radio, Pierre Robert read a beautiful message from Kyle. Kyle dedicated an entire "workforce block" of Alice in Chains (one of our favorite bands) to me for our 2 year anniversary (which isn't until Monday, but it was one of the sweetest things he could have done).
Needless to say, I felt very happy for the remainder of the day and incredibly loved. I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to be marrying him--my best friend. I love you, Kyle.
After my 2 month hiatus from moving and the holidays, I'm ready to blog and back in action. The holidays were nice, very lazy, but nice. Kyle and I enjoyed having our first holiday together in our own place, which by the way, is amazing. We love it here.
Allow me to give you the grand tour:
LIVING ROOM: DINING ROOM:
Also, here is our "Charlie Brown" tree that we got at The Dollar Store:
Isn't it cute??? Well, I hope you enjoyed the tour. I will be updating again sometime soon. Perhaps when my Dad sends me pictures from his visit here for the week. :)
Hope you all had a wonderful holiday! Till next time . . .